||[Sep. 22nd, 2005|08:43 pm]
well, the truck driving thing fell through because of the back problem thing. it's been pretty ugly here having no money and all. you wouldn'y believe how fucking hard it is to get a job here with a head full of dreads and facial tattoos. nobody will hire me, not even a parking lot after having a year and a half of "parking experience". i may have a breakthrough here though, my notboyfriend aaron was a union stagehand for years until he started having siezures and is now more or less disabled and unable to work, but he may be able to get me an in with the union, plus when i was in college years ago i actually majored in technical theatre. so tomorrow we go to the union and attempt to sign me up, wish me luck 'cause i so need it. my mom's been really great since i got here, helping with the bills and all and not being too angry with me for not working yet. i think she almost understands how difficult it's been. i have a really bad back, it's worse than ever, and it really limits what jobs i can do, and my generally wierd appearance has definitely not helped. it may sound like a vacation, but i'm bloody miserable. i have done absolutely nothing really exciting or fun since i got here because i have absolutely no money to do it with. i feel like i'm drowning. i should never have left when i did, i wanted to wait 'till the end of summer to move but mom insisted i leave when i did, and i don't really blame her, caring for my grandma has been really hard on her and she needs all the help she can get. i think it would have been better to wait though, but that's the thing with ann arbor, you wait 'till after summer to leave, but the summer was so fun you can't imagine going away, then winter comes and you're stuck and the whole cycle starts all over again. oh well. i guess things can only get better, right? insert a whole bunch of other happy cliches here...