||[Jul. 20th, 2005|07:06 pm]
i am sitting in a well air conditioned hotel room in phoenix by myself. i'm here for truck driving school and it's been one day and i'm already wondering if i should have come here. we had physicals today and had to lift a bunch of really heavy shit repeatedly, and for all of you who don't know i have a really bad back (or disc, if you want to be minute about it). so, i guess if i can move my legs when i wake up tomorrow i'll continue with school, but if not i'm going to have to go home and scramble for a job as it has already been waaaaaaaaaay too long since i've gotten a paycheck. things were so much easier in michigan...this is me being severely homesick. by the way it's hotter than fuck here, like between 105 and 115 degrees generally during the day. ouch. people are dying because it's so hot, it's not right. inside i am laughing at brooke and adam for wanting to move here, and i don't even care right now that that's totally mean, they broke my heart so there.
other news, it looks like it'll take a large miracle or act of the gods to get me out there for punk week, i'll either be still in truck driving training or severely poor and needing work badly. i am very very sad about this, but i hope that i can make it out there in the fall. i miss ann arbor music, i miss my friends, and i miss the best summers ever. i'm trying really hard to keep things from starting a downward spiral.
i miss all of you....